I wish I could say that someone would respond to this, but I highly doubt that anyone really reads my journal. I guess I just needed a place to vent where it's away from my other social media sites.
The world hurts. Everything about it is rotten. There is no such thing as love and people who claim to have it and want to give it to you are lying. I was too naive to realize that and now I really just don't care anymore.
Love in all it's forms do not exist. Whether it be from a higher power, a parent to it's child, a friend to another friend, or a lover to their lover. It's just a thinly veiled cover for a deeper and more sadistic control mechanism.
I've been sitting here for about 3 hours crying and feeling more depressed that I have in a very long time. I sat here thinking about if I should begin writing a letter to my family and friends about what I was planning to do. I ultimately decided to not do that. That I would rather feel misery and pain than to never feel again.